Isis has now started to reverse the effect of numerous hours spent trancing to others files over that 8 month period, much of what she has told me is frightening for me to think about, i came really close to being enslaved permantley by the Hypnodomme, in just a few more weeks, maybe days i would have been unreachable, the real me lost forever and replaced by the implanted personality.
Isis used her fantastic understanding of hypnosis to first stop the progression of the implanted personality and divert its attention away from its destructive control of me to actually being constructive.
This programming was deeply implanted into my subconsious and I am amazed at how adeptly Isis was able to reverse this dark path I was treading within my mind.
After just one session with Isis I felt markedly safer, I said "i feel much better Isis" Isis wisely replied "this is one small step" , "there are still many potential issues and concerns.
I wasnt sure at that point , I now felt great, but my trust of Isis kept me from believing my own thinking , little did I know how deeply affected I still was , and how I was till so vunerable to being dragged back to that dark place in just a few minutes with the wrong hypnodomme if they so wished.
I still had dozens of triggers implanted deep within my subconsious mind , these had to be removed! Isis had told me if she wanted to she could have taken what was done, and used it to her benefit, maybe other less scroupless hypnotists my have taken advantage of me in that state, However I trusted Isis completetly to reverse these suggestions, but this was going to take a lot more time than one session.
It is important to Isis that hypnosis brings out the best in me, the best I can be, enriching My life and giving back in equal amounts.
For all the love taken in the same amount is given back. This fantastic principle is upper most in achieving equilibrium for myself and my well being.
Sunday 20 November 2011
Saturday 5 November 2011
The Light of Isis
After much pushing by my friend i managed to contact Isis as he suggested.
Isis explained what can happen and how seemingly innocent recordings and actions could have greater effect than I realized. She explained how suggestions implanted can become a real part of your personality. I finally was able to let Isis hypnotize me to help me deal with my seemingly dual self. What she found was that within me I now had a part of me that acted independently of the rest of me. It was a part that could ultimately be in control, and the me that I had always known myself to be would be lost. Apparently that part of me knew more than the rest of me did, and was very close to being in full control. It was gradually taking over me, and telling me what I desired. Even dreams were reinforcing its control. I was constantly aroused at night, and wasn't sleeping well, when I was sleeping at all..
I didn't know that I had walked into a field full of landmines. Erotic hypnosis seemed like fun. It was full of pleasure. I had no idea how destructive it could be to the life I had, and potentially to my relationship. It was getting to the point that I was almost indifferent to my wife. The hypnodomme who hypnotized me kept telling me that she was the only one that mattered, and that I should focus only on her. The part of me that obeyed her took that to mean that my wife didn't matter.
As I have come to understand it, files I had listened to in the beginning laid a foundation for me to be submissive to women - something I never had been before. I found myself reacting to things in unusual ways ( an urge to kneel at womens feet ), but it seemed to have become the new "natural" for me. I couldn't help myself, and it helped me to become submissive to other women, which in turn made me ripe for this hypnodomme's work. In a few short weeks I had become unrecognizeable to myself in many ways.
listening to many hypnodommes files changed my personality, made me very submissive to women, I didn't ask to to be that way, i wasn't that way before.
Some will wonder if a powerful hypnodomme can change your whole personality. In my experience the answer is YES. The changes they effect can sneak up on you without you realizing the extent of what is happening.
If you had asked me only a month ago if a hypnodomme could change me into a mindless drone, I would have scoffed, and I would have been naively wrong, very wrong.
It is what you think you know that can get you into trouble. The fact is there was a lot I didn't know before i was dragged to the bottom of a long dark tunnel. It was pleasurable for a time, but I had no idea that opening the door meant I would be going where I did. I did not ask for these things to happen, and often had no idea of the true scope of what was occurring. I would not even remember the trances.
I owe Isis more than I could ever hope to repay her, she saved my personality as I know it.
Isis is my light amongst the darkness of my experience of the world of erotic hypnosis, and I thank her with all my heart for her guidance and love.
As Isis helps me more on my journey back from darkness I will post again of my experiences.
Isis explained what can happen and how seemingly innocent recordings and actions could have greater effect than I realized. She explained how suggestions implanted can become a real part of your personality. I finally was able to let Isis hypnotize me to help me deal with my seemingly dual self. What she found was that within me I now had a part of me that acted independently of the rest of me. It was a part that could ultimately be in control, and the me that I had always known myself to be would be lost. Apparently that part of me knew more than the rest of me did, and was very close to being in full control. It was gradually taking over me, and telling me what I desired. Even dreams were reinforcing its control. I was constantly aroused at night, and wasn't sleeping well, when I was sleeping at all..
I didn't know that I had walked into a field full of landmines. Erotic hypnosis seemed like fun. It was full of pleasure. I had no idea how destructive it could be to the life I had, and potentially to my relationship. It was getting to the point that I was almost indifferent to my wife. The hypnodomme who hypnotized me kept telling me that she was the only one that mattered, and that I should focus only on her. The part of me that obeyed her took that to mean that my wife didn't matter.
As I have come to understand it, files I had listened to in the beginning laid a foundation for me to be submissive to women - something I never had been before. I found myself reacting to things in unusual ways ( an urge to kneel at womens feet ), but it seemed to have become the new "natural" for me. I couldn't help myself, and it helped me to become submissive to other women, which in turn made me ripe for this hypnodomme's work. In a few short weeks I had become unrecognizeable to myself in many ways.
listening to many hypnodommes files changed my personality, made me very submissive to women, I didn't ask to to be that way, i wasn't that way before.
Some will wonder if a powerful hypnodomme can change your whole personality. In my experience the answer is YES. The changes they effect can sneak up on you without you realizing the extent of what is happening.
If you had asked me only a month ago if a hypnodomme could change me into a mindless drone, I would have scoffed, and I would have been naively wrong, very wrong.
It is what you think you know that can get you into trouble. The fact is there was a lot I didn't know before i was dragged to the bottom of a long dark tunnel. It was pleasurable for a time, but I had no idea that opening the door meant I would be going where I did. I did not ask for these things to happen, and often had no idea of the true scope of what was occurring. I would not even remember the trances.
I owe Isis more than I could ever hope to repay her, she saved my personality as I know it.
Isis is my light amongst the darkness of my experience of the world of erotic hypnosis, and I thank her with all my heart for her guidance and love.
As Isis helps me more on my journey back from darkness I will post again of my experiences.
Down into Darkness
I was just seeking an outlet for my surprisingly newly found submissive side, and some fun.
I got much much more than I bargained for.
If it had been what I wanted, it certainly would have been a bonus.
but it wasn't, it was more like a nightmare I couldn't seem to wake up from!
I listened to one file three months ago (the intent of which I wasn't aware of) that suggested i got involved with the HypnoDomme community.
In the process of doing that, I found myself involved with a hypnodomme who gave me a file of hers for free. It left me me unable to touch myself ( chastity ).How could a file have such an effect, I certainly tried but was unable. I explained my situation to Her, and She told me that was the idea, I would have to Obey Her now.
She then gave me another file with instructions, and again I did what she wanted. I started to get to a point where I was in constant arousal to the point where I felt I was about to cum for hours on end, then it would die down, and then I would edge again for her to the same point.
I begged her to release me , I was so under her control, helpless to the pleasure and control. Instead of releasing me from the suggestions, she gave me another file and more instructions.
Release was allowed only while trancing to one of her files, and I can't even begin to describe the pleasure I felt.
My life was filled with days of edging, and release only while in trance. I felt lost to the control she seemed to exert over me.
The more i listened to Her and Her files the more I changed - even my personality changed. Being aroused was everything to me. Nothing else mattered, only my own sexual enjoyment and her soft controlling voice.
She continued to change me, i developed fetishes for ladies shoes and being forced to perform sexual acts on my Mistress while in trance, these included bondage acts.
After a week or so of hours of listening every night (I hardly slept ) i became hers, totally hers. She started to ask me for money which i gave to her. More files followed, more instructions, more pleasure, I was hopelessly under Her spell.
Did i mention I am married!
I sent a message to her saying that if my wife noticed the money leaving the bank all hell may break loose, she said "don't worry", and used a trigger to make me so aroused I had to trance again for relief.
I was feeling tortured, and I knew this was getting out of hand. I could feel the control she had changing the very person I was inside.
Someone that I had become friendly with online suggested that I speak to Isis, "Isis can help you. Trust her. She knows about this," he said.
As much as I wanted to, I couldn't contact Isis; The Hypnodommes control of my subconscious were stopping me from seeking help from Isis.
There was a voice in my head that I trusted, I needed help, and I was trying to act. It felt like the hardest thing I ever had to do. I felt ripped apart, like two different people at odds with each other. One needing help and the other urging me on to contact the Hypnodomme and beg for more of Her Control and Pleasure.
A part of me was overpowering My own will. I was being compelled to contact Her again !.
While i was struggling internally, something happened that seemed to break the "spell" for a moment, but Her pull was so strong I still could hardly think.
This hypnodomme kept trying to trigger me, and I was so confused.
I got much much more than I bargained for.
If it had been what I wanted, it certainly would have been a bonus.
but it wasn't, it was more like a nightmare I couldn't seem to wake up from!
I listened to one file three months ago (the intent of which I wasn't aware of) that suggested i got involved with the HypnoDomme community.
In the process of doing that, I found myself involved with a hypnodomme who gave me a file of hers for free. It left me me unable to touch myself ( chastity ).How could a file have such an effect, I certainly tried but was unable. I explained my situation to Her, and She told me that was the idea, I would have to Obey Her now.
She then gave me another file with instructions, and again I did what she wanted. I started to get to a point where I was in constant arousal to the point where I felt I was about to cum for hours on end, then it would die down, and then I would edge again for her to the same point.
I begged her to release me , I was so under her control, helpless to the pleasure and control. Instead of releasing me from the suggestions, she gave me another file and more instructions.
Release was allowed only while trancing to one of her files, and I can't even begin to describe the pleasure I felt.
My life was filled with days of edging, and release only while in trance. I felt lost to the control she seemed to exert over me.
The more i listened to Her and Her files the more I changed - even my personality changed. Being aroused was everything to me. Nothing else mattered, only my own sexual enjoyment and her soft controlling voice.
She continued to change me, i developed fetishes for ladies shoes and being forced to perform sexual acts on my Mistress while in trance, these included bondage acts.
After a week or so of hours of listening every night (I hardly slept ) i became hers, totally hers. She started to ask me for money which i gave to her. More files followed, more instructions, more pleasure, I was hopelessly under Her spell.
Did i mention I am married!
I sent a message to her saying that if my wife noticed the money leaving the bank all hell may break loose, she said "don't worry", and used a trigger to make me so aroused I had to trance again for relief.
I was feeling tortured, and I knew this was getting out of hand. I could feel the control she had changing the very person I was inside.
Someone that I had become friendly with online suggested that I speak to Isis, "Isis can help you. Trust her. She knows about this," he said.
As much as I wanted to, I couldn't contact Isis; The Hypnodommes control of my subconscious were stopping me from seeking help from Isis.
There was a voice in my head that I trusted, I needed help, and I was trying to act. It felt like the hardest thing I ever had to do. I felt ripped apart, like two different people at odds with each other. One needing help and the other urging me on to contact the Hypnodomme and beg for more of Her Control and Pleasure.
A part of me was overpowering My own will. I was being compelled to contact Her again !.
While i was struggling internally, something happened that seemed to break the "spell" for a moment, but Her pull was so strong I still could hardly think.
This hypnodomme kept trying to trigger me, and I was so confused.
Beginnings
What I am about to describe has evolved over the last 8 months.
I was looking for hypnosis files to improve my golf and stumbled across an erotic file by a hypnotist which was a freebie on youtube.
The descriptions were minimal, but I was intrigued by comments left by others who had listened to the file.
I couldn't believe what the file did to me! I was so aroused just listening to someone's voice. I was stunned!
Maybe I was submissive, given some of my past sexual history and given the effect the file I found had on me, I had to wonder.
I started to look on the Internet for others, and found loads of others by the same hypnotist, as well as others from another popular HypnoDomme.
Listening over and over to these files got me very sexually aroused, but it became addictive, very addictive.
what I didn't realize at that time was the total effect that they would have on me.
I had no idea the rabbit hole I was entering.
I was looking for hypnosis files to improve my golf and stumbled across an erotic file by a hypnotist which was a freebie on youtube.
The descriptions were minimal, but I was intrigued by comments left by others who had listened to the file.
I couldn't believe what the file did to me! I was so aroused just listening to someone's voice. I was stunned!
Maybe I was submissive, given some of my past sexual history and given the effect the file I found had on me, I had to wonder.
I started to look on the Internet for others, and found loads of others by the same hypnotist, as well as others from another popular HypnoDomme.
Listening over and over to these files got me very sexually aroused, but it became addictive, very addictive.
what I didn't realize at that time was the total effect that they would have on me.
I had no idea the rabbit hole I was entering.
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